this is my blog about eating and not eating, and the anxiety that comes with it. it is, however, not a pro-ana blog, as i don't wish to be anorexic or in any way
want to encourage or promote eating disorders. for these reasons, i've also decided to post as little information about my weight, BMI or kcal intake as possible. despite this, anyone in the process of recovery probably shouldn't read it. be nice to yourself ♥
stay focused on the happy, light and safe feeling of going to sleep and knowing the day went well, the feeling of relief and pride when the numbers of the scale are getting smaller, the feeling of pure joy when hanging out with friends, looking small and thin and cute and confident.
and never forget the desperation, the self-hatred, the disgust of having eaten too much, of beating yourself up, desperately trying to purge without being able to, going running to burn it off without succeeding, despising yourself, thinking whywhyWHY did i eat all that, it didn't even taste good, i didn't even enjoy it, it only made me fat and ugly and sad.